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Its a BAD day for Da ‘Beetus

“Mom you should have warned me!”
What was he talking about?
“Mom you should have warned me that we have a clinic appointment tomorrow! I would have done a lot better. Today was a really bad day for da ‘beetus!”
He did know that he had a clinic appointment today. He simply chose to forget…like he forgot to test a number of key times throughout the day and like he forgot to bolus for his supper! It was a very bad day for “da beetus” alright!
I have downloaded his meter. I have written out his basal patterns and the result is that I don’t want to know what his A1c is because I know it will be bad.  I also wonder what I have been thinking in looking at his basal patterns on the weekend versus the weekdays.  The weekdays are a mess. My first guilty thought was “its time to do some serious basal testing and fix this!”  My second thought was “why?”  This is my son’s last full week of school.  Next week is an exam every morning and then slacking…I mean studying every afternoon. After that it is basically summer vacation, a time when we switch over to a permanent “weekend” basal pattern.
I hate the thought of our team looking at his readings. They are a mess but each one tells a story.  They say… “He didn’t weigh his cereal.”  “He eats constantly and there is no break to test basal patterns.”  “He is working out and we are working at learning how exercise impacts his insulin needs.”  “Mom has given up asking for data and works with the little information that she gets.”
My son said that I should just let our team do their job. That would be great but they have no data either! How do you say adjust that basal or bolus ratio based on a reading that was taken 20 minutes AFTER he ate? Hopefully they will simply be on board with helping to get us a CGM in the fall or whenever the DexCom comes to market.  Perhaps they they will remind him to test if he wants his licence.
I hate clinic appointments. Why do they always feel like you are going into the principal’s even though you know that you are doing your very best? Perhaps I will just go in, keep quiet and let my son handle all of this one…that would make things interesting! Wish us luck!
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A1c Guilt

Its weird.  When we get our A1c, I hate telling other people what it is.  We work hard but I know a lot of other people who work hard too. We use a pump but they use a pump too. The only CGM we have is our own regular testing. Despite all of this, I have friends who struggle to see an A1c under 8.  We have rarely, in twelve years, seen one over 7.  

I have no delusions of this lasting forever. I know my son will hit his own walls when Mom is not around. I know that I have provided a cushion for those years however. I have been told this cushion may help him during those rough years reducing the chances of complications. I pray so. 

Despite that fact, I rarely publicly state his A1c.  I feel guilty because we succeed where others struggle. I don’t see us doing anything different. Maybe we are just lucky. 

My son actually sees diabetes has relatively easy! That scares me.  He says,
“its simple.  You count the carbs.  You give the insulin.  You test. You adjust. What is the big deal?” 


Wow.  I know its not that simple but perhaps it is good that he doesn’t see it as that big of a burden or a problem. I know he sees it as an annoyance. I know he sees it as something he would rather ignore but it does not appear to be a “challenge” to him.  It is simply his life.  I guess that is one thing to be grateful for.