School is back in full swing and Diabetes continues to annoy. The other night, as I was getting ready to head to bed, I thought back over the past few months. June was a low month. I could do nothing to get any control or a break from treating and dealing with lows. July was in range. I received some respite and a chance to breathe for a minute. August was high. There was no controlling the beast. No matter what we did, Diabetes messed with us through failed sites and just being Diabetes.
Obviously I was not thinking well that night because I figured that based on this pattern I should see good readings in September and then lows in October. Where was the logic there? I seemed to have been a bit delusional in my hopes of enjoying a Diabetes reprieve. Reality was that night, my son had his first stubborn low…well since June! Can we say that I was sooooo not prepared?
I was exhausted. I was a mess. I woke up at 3 and was up for an hour trying to get him into a “mom can now sleep” range. The next morning was school so there was no extra rest. We also had appointments to deal with so I really was going to get no break.
The result? Bang! I was a wreck. I managed to string words together. I managed emails to the schools that my children attend to address issues that have already arisen. I refused to get too involved in any of these problems and prayed no one replied to me for a day. I was feeling testy and defensive. I didn’t want to mess with anything. By 6pm I could gladly have gone to bed. I stayed up. We watched TV and went for our evening walk. I was dying.
It was finally bedtime. I had changed my son’s rates and prayed for a better night. He was high. I love this Diabetes roller coaster…NOT!