I know that I have said that I am not worried or fussing about my son’s upcoming A1c…and I’m not. Its past. There is nothing that can be done. The next A1c will only have my control for 2 out of 3 months. He will be on his own for one month while he visits with family and friends. This is traditionally his worst A1c of the year. I can provide hands on help for two of those three months though.
I have been logging daily for our clinic appointment next week. Perhaps, my plan to stop logging for the past few months was a bit premature. As I log, I find mistakes, errors, and missed tests. There is a lot of information to learn from. It is also a lot of work.
I can understand why adults with diabetes get burnt out. There is so much there. There is guilt. There is frustration. I think that its time that I really do continue with this however but I also know that I will get bored; I will get busy; I will get frustrated. How do I expect my son to do this later on in his life?
I expect it because I have worked so hard for so long to teach him. I expect it because its what keeps him alive. All of my work has to make some difference. It has to sink in…but its a lot of work! The benefit is a healthy child.
I guess that last line says it all. Its all about keeping him healthy. I will try to keep the logging up after his appointment. I will attempt to micro manage, to teach, to breath and not freak out. The last part will be my biggest challenge.
Its so easy to get frustrated at the same mistakes. On the upside, during this week, every day has brought a new and unique mistake! I will have to focus on that. Learning,not harping. Working together, not creating a widening gap. Doing this for all of the right reasons and keeping communication lines open. Breathing and perhaps more wine…yeah I can do this!