Day two of Dblog Week asks what we keep private. What is it that is off limits for sharing with our readers or maybe even family and friends? What will you never read about on these pages?
This is actually an interesting topic. Once upon a time, there was almost nothing that you would not read on my blog pages. I was an open book in part because I never thought anyone else would read what I had to say. It was my personal journal, sharing my most raw emotions. As friends and strangers began to read, things began to change.
I no longer write when emotionally charged. I still write posts with emotional attachments but I try to wait, write, re-write, wait, and then post after the fact. I want people to understand some of what I deal with as a parent of a child with diabetes but I don’t want them to lose the point in a sea of anger or frustration.
I no longer write my son’s name and very rarely the names of anyone around me out of respect for their privacy. My son spent a lot of his early life with diabetes in the spotlight. I wanted people to know more about the disease but I never considered that he’d preferred anonymity. He did. At 16, he laid down the law. He wanted his privacy. He did not want to featured in diabetes related campaigns or any other displays. I have learned to honour that.
Over time my life has changed and so too have my blog posts. I now seek out topics that advocate and highlight issues of awareness. Our life with diabetes has changed. It no longer consumes me 24/7. It is simply a nagging thought in my head but a burden for my son to now carry almost solely on his own. I can no longer moan about sleepless nights but I will still share my feelings of guilt at being able to sleep.
I will still share many emotions and experiences in my blog posts. I try to keep them real and from the heart. Yes, there are a few things that you will never read about. There are a few things that family and friends will never understand either but the important things that educate, advocate and raise awareness will always be shared.